I'm Lost.

Freaking Depressed Right Now

It's 15/09/2010

3 day of final

and i'm feeling like dying more than continue-ing the war

I'm Feeling Lost

Every effort i put doesn't come with a good result

everything was just so unexpected

Well , i just can conclude that

Degree really has a big different compare to Foundation.

Extremely Big

1st day Management Principle already make me feel like dying 

cause it's all about memorization power and i'm super dooper weak in it

so doom

i did try hard with my gangs, but i just can said that i tried my best to do it and no regret with the result that i will get

2nd day FAF I

the financial accounting framework paper 1

OMFG

everything 

UNEXPECTED.

standard same as the pass year, but differ from tutorials ALOT.

Dun even know why the lecturers won't teach us according to the pass year standard.

Maybe this is why it call degree.

everything must have a change

everything you have to find it our all by yourself.

so

this paper , DOOM.

3rd day, QT I

the paper that i have the most confident that i can do well and cover back the other too

but i FAILED

the worst exam that i've ever did in maths.

i've made the wrong decision and lead my maths paper to death.

My confidence all lost right now.

and i start to doubt that 

Putting so much effort doesn't mean that you will get good returns.

i'm just freaking down after the exam.

I've cried but it doesn't feel well neither.

i just felt so sorry to myself for making such mistake.

i don't want fail.

no, i don't like C neither.

i don't expect to be perfect but neither being worst.

i just want myself to be better.

I felt sorry to myself and parents that i never being the top once in my life.

the worst feeling that keep surround me is

I fucking don't like being look down by others.

i don't like being compare to others. 

sometimes even your closest person may do that to you too.

and it hurts.

i've did my best to get what i want to prove.

but if i failed, i don't deserve to be look down too.

cause at least i tried.

Shoulder please. Seriously i need 1 now, especially you hub. <3

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