Speechless

Sigh.

things didn't go well.

in the end

i still have to face the fact after whole day of seeking info.

but yet listening to the truth makes me freaked out.

i'm freaking scare right now.

although it's just a small surgery and it's just the beginning

but i'm still scared.

what will happen after the examination of that thing ?

LOL.

feeling like being a white mouse for the whole surgery.

why i'm like emphasizing the whole small thing ?

you know what ?

you never know the feelings of the patient when you are not one of them

now i truly understand the meaning

no matter how many ppl telling you it's just a small deal or anything to cheer you up

for your own feelings.

you will be saying ,

"wtf it's easy for you to say since it's not you the 1 who's getting the surgery !"

hell yeah i know it's just a small 1

yet i'm still freaking out !

it's my neck ok ? and i'm not going to be in a fainted condition you know ?

so that really freaks me out.

beside

i hate the hospital

yea i don't have to stay but hello ?!!

i'm still going into the scary surgery room having a surgery !

what's the difference between that ?!

just want to express out all my feelings around here.

i'm freaking pissed off

can't say pissed 

i'm just scared about the surgery that idk what's gonna happen next.

Sigh