Surgery Room

I'm back peeps.

With a scar around my neck.

sigh.

Date : 21st of December

Time : 8.30am

Venue  Kedah Medical Centre (KMC)

well i arrived late abit

almost 9am i think

but it's not a wrong decision

cause the ppl there made me waited for hours for the operation too

=.="

1st it was the blood test

well actually i was shivering that time

i'm kinda sick about facing blood and big needle.

well it's quite pain during the time the nurse taking my blood

2 bottles. oh my~

but compare it to the pain for the needle on the hand for the surgery

it's just the beginning man !

:(

Next it's the x-ray and ultrasound.

well that's the safe part as no pain is needed.

but i did something that's kinda humiliating .

That is i wore the idk what does that call 

some kind of rob i think

i wore it oppositely and i still not knowing it till the time when the nurse ask me to change it again for the operation.

i just knew that.

oh my~

and during the x-ray

without bra's on.

OMG.

and the doc taking the x-ray is a guy.

&^%$#@&^%$#

speechless.

:(

after those procedures,

i have to check in to a room although i'm not overnight-ing in the hospital

cause i have to wait for the operation and it's also counted a day care i think.

the room.

Yucks.

i don't like it.

well i expected it to be better cause the fees here are quite expensive.

and i had to wait in the room from 11.30a.m till 3.30p.m for the operation.

i don't like that feeling really.

cause i was just so scared when i see the nurse keep passing by or coming in. 

CAUSE I REALLY DON'T WANT TO GO FOR THE OPERATION.

the nurse even laugh at me for being so shock and scared.

PPL REALLY SCARE ABOUT IT MA. WHY LAUGH WOR. :(

well during the time i just can't stop nagging to my mum that i don't want to go for the operation.

Sigh.

Useless.

they say that's the best for me.LOL. 

no choice.

even the bf came i also just can't stop disturbing him about how not willing am i to go for the operation.

and how fear am i for the whole thing. :(

Surgery time.

LOL.

it's not fun when you are lying on the trolley like that and being pushed to the surgery room.

it felt like i'm going to meet the Setan in the hell soon.

and when i was push inside.

1stly i thought i was already in the surgery room once i went inside.

but turns out i'm not.

there'still another room in there.

and the room is really scary.

but before going in, i'm being abandoned outside for the preparation.

and here comes the pain.

OUCH FOR THE STUPID NEEDLE THAT HAVE TO PUT ABOVE MY HAND.

THAT SERIOUSLY HURT MAN !

AND IT'S EVEN MORE HURT WHEN IT INJECT THE THING THAT LET YOU FAINT.

i told the doctor i was freaking out there.

so he suggested to let me be blur during the operation.

well the nurse inside was quite friendly.

but it doesn't help much.

i still end up crying like a child when i was being operating. :(

it was just so scary you know !

so suddenly they say ok start then pushed you into another room

full of those surgery lights and things.

just like what you saw in the dramas surgery room.

SCARY.

and when you heard the doc say take this ! take that !

i totally freaked out !

but in a sudden i lost my intuition and in a sudden i was crying like a child and the nurse have to hold my hands so that i don't move.

and luckily i was being covered with lots of towels on my face.

just not to witness the whole thing.

but the surgery room, i really dare not to forget that.

i even had a nightmare about the room that night after the surgery. o.O 

guess i really went way too over ady. 

well it was quite embarrassing cause i'm 19th and i still end up crying like a little girl for a small surgery.

*for them of course.=.=*

 hope that i won't step into it again !

:(

waiting for my report now.

27th will be back to get it.

hope everything is ok.

i don't want to go back to that scary room anymore !

:(

anyway

thanks to the hubby for coming to the hospital to take over my parents to accompany me 

although you do scared me alot be4 the surgery.

but i still appreciated your coming.

Hugs. <3 :)

Speechless

Sigh.

things didn't go well.

in the end

i still have to face the fact after whole day of seeking info.

but yet listening to the truth makes me freaked out.

i'm freaking scare right now.

although it's just a small surgery and it's just the beginning

but i'm still scared.

what will happen after the examination of that thing ?

LOL.

feeling like being a white mouse for the whole surgery.

why i'm like emphasizing the whole small thing ?

you know what ?

you never know the feelings of the patient when you are not one of them

now i truly understand the meaning

no matter how many ppl telling you it's just a small deal or anything to cheer you up

for your own feelings.

you will be saying ,

"wtf it's easy for you to say since it's not you the 1 who's getting the surgery !"

hell yeah i know it's just a small 1

yet i'm still freaking out !

it's my neck ok ? and i'm not going to be in a fainted condition you know ?

so that really freaks me out.

beside

i hate the hospital

yea i don't have to stay but hello ?!!

i'm still going into the scary surgery room having a surgery !

what's the difference between that ?!

just want to express out all my feelings around here.

i'm freaking pissed off

can't say pissed 

i'm just scared about the surgery that idk what's gonna happen next.

Sigh

19th !

My lame title again

holiday is here !

and tones of fun is coming !

but wait

maybe not for me.

something bad happened to me.

actually it happen around half year ago i think but i'm just being so stubborn ignoring it

well wish me luck.

hope that it's not serious enough after the checking. :/

back to the topic

i'm back to my lovely little town.

for the next moral post that i promised

i'll post it when my lappie is done.

since all the photos are there and i'm not use to my dad's desktop or the little hp lappie to update.

o.O

oh ya 

forgot to mention

i had disappeared from the network for 2 weeks because my lappie went SICK and i'm broke to fix it

so i decided to fix it after i came back here.

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I'm finally 19th !

yeepee~

:D

for the pass 3 days i just past my 19th years old birthday

and i'm glad that all my buddies remember it 

the wishes and calls are warm for me.

really thanks alot. :)

besides that

out of my expectation 

my moral group mates pop out for a sudden celebration with a cake at my house after the gathering

haha

really thanks a lot for making the day special.
:)
and specially thanks to wen dick too
for taking so much photo during that session and you made my e-bike cassy looked great !
:D
just gonna post some photos.
since all had been uploaded in fb and i've been tagged.
so check it out through there peeps.
:)

i love this picture alot. reason ?
My e-bike cassy shined like a star in this picture. :)

ok i know this pic looked funny but this is really my expression for the surprises they gave. :X

Our group photo with my e-bike~they love it so much~:D

muahahaha~
know why i uploaded this pic ?
cause i love my babe wiwy in this expression~
look cute what~at least i'm the only 1 who support this picta~XD
so i'm promoting it in my blog ! :D

say cheeze to the camera man ! :D

end up here.
blog next time when i'm free.
hope everything will be all right. :)
ciaoz ppls.
:)

Moral Campaign- Part 1

Hey peeps

i'm back again to blog bout ma life.

well i often leave my blog dead as i don't have much things to blog about.

so the each time i blog,

there's something happen for sure.

and same as my title above.

Imma blog about my moral campaign. 

:D

Well for the theme of my moral campaign is diskriminasi.

so it's a kempen talking about our world discriminating cases such as

~ discrimination on gender

~discrimination on status

~discrimination on aids

~discrimination on races

~discrimination on criminals

and so much more

well those that i've listed out is the 1 that our campaign wanted to bring out the message

well all of us did drama and the campaign was a success 1.

great job teams !

especially to my group members and leader~

we did a great 1 last night and it will be a great memory for all of us.

well let the picta talks !

1st of all, my group members !

the 1st picture for our group for the moral writing assignments.

:)

2nd photo of us after our campaign.

:)

making fun version !

just took picture with you guys~

not time to take with others cause packing~

:'(

we are taking other groups props to take photo~ :D

the whole moral campaign group members.

:)

well of course there are more pictures.

it's just that i haven get all the pics so i couldn't upload now.

 :'(

i will blog again with all the pics for the next post.

:D

stay tunned.

:)